Still working through Encumbrances. Fasting is not going well. The Daniel part of the fast, well, has fallen away. I have done pretty well during the day mostly… Until my son brought me a piece of silk pie from his job. Then another son brought me a scoop of custard with lots of pieces of chocolate and caramel in it.. And we went out to eat…
It seemed like such a good idea at the time!! It seemed so easy when I started talking about it!!
That is kind of the problem when you decide to fast. Everything in life causes you to be tempted. It is still my choice to accept the temptations, no doubt about that. I could have chosen much better, very true. Especially when you are hungry.
I felt like just giving up. Throwing in the towel. Being done with this whole thing.
Then I read this today when I was seriously just thinking I am done with this whole fasting thing:
Amplified Bible Hebrews 12:1
Therefore then, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses [who have borne testimony to the Truth], let us strip off and throw aside every encumbrance (unnecessary weight) and that sin which so readily (deftly and cleverly) clings to and entangles us, and let us run with patient endurance and steady and active persistence the appointed course of the race that is set before us, (courtesy Biblegateway.com)
I am surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses encouraging me to keep going, keep trying. Don’t give up! I have my own personal cheering section watching over me and encouraging me to not give up! (Okay, I know it doesn’t say they are cheering for me, but what else would they be doing, just impassively watching me mess up with bored looks on their faces?? They are in HEAVEN!!! That is a happier place than DisneyWorld!! I prefer to think they are cheering me on, like a crowd at a sporting event!)
How can I throw in the towel now?? Today is the day I work on throwing aside all the things that tempt me to give up and just quit. Today is a new day. A day to start over, take control of the sin of gluttony and throw it aside.
It is an encumbrance to me. An unnecessary weight. A sin that so readily clings to me and entangles me.
Food and the desire for food should not control what I eat. My mind and good choices should control me.
My bad impulses and reactions need to be stopped. Not only in food choices but in life in general. Just last week, I lost it bad on the the 15 year old. Granted, he had been home for 2 weeks, and that was the first time I had lost it on him in that time. Pretty good amount of self control on my part. He IS 15 after all. Until that last straw. I blew it then big time. Not a good reaction.
Instead of RE-actions I need to be PRO- active. In food choices this week, ANNNd in those things that, well… push my buttons could we say??
To that end, I will work harder to have good food choices ready for when those temptations hit. I will work harder to nip those things that trigger a reaction in the bud quickly BEFORE they hit the point where reaction kicks in.
(lots of cliche’ sayings here I realize…)
I want my cloud to be happy to be cheering me on. I want to hear more often “Great Job!! You did it!!” Not so many “It’s ok- You can do better the next time!”
How are you doing with your word choice? Or did you choose a goal/dream?? Have you given it up already 5 days in?? Or are you going strong yet?? I would love to hear how you are doing in the comments.