I am truly grateful.. I really am..
It’s just that today, well, I was just thinking that today, well……
Ok- I could be done raising kids right now!
There I said it.
I could be done. I have 5 kids over the age of 19. They have completed school. Some moved out. I could have the house to myself most of the time. I could have all the free time I want to write and draw.
I could play with horses and go riding. I could drive the tractor or car without arguments over whether or not I can actually drive them or will someone else get there first…
I could clean the house and it would stay clean. I could wash just a few loads of laundry, when I want to.
I could not have to deal with schooling 4 kids.
I could go without cooking for days. I could go grocery shopping and get to eat what I purchased.
Yep… It was a Monday. A usual school day really. Just a bit frustrated with some things that I realized I need to change.
I don’t want to.
I am really grateful that I don’t have to put away the dishes myself. I am grateful that I can have someone else clean the litter box. (very grateful for THAT one!)
I am really grateful for these wonderful kids. I do love them. That will never change.
I am glad that I have them. I would not ever trade them for anything.
Somedays, I just think, “what if?”